THESE ARE MY THOUGHTS!!

As a Student!,
I think I should work hard, visit the lib more frequently, get a good grade and graduate, get a post-graduate degree, be employed to a white collar job.
These are my thoughts...
As a Gambler;
I think I should gamble my way out of life, win bets. Grab the jackpot and change my destiny for good.
These are my thoughts...
As a Hustler;
I think I should fold my sleeves and hustle, hustle hard to beat poverty arms up! Earn the life of my choice through my sweat. Be a hustler..
These are my thoughts...
As a Citizen;
I think I should be loyal to my country, pay taxes, cast votes, report law breakers, defend my country at all times. Obey the constitution, I should be a good citizen.
These are my thoughts...
As a Christian;
I have to improve my faith on Him, The Mighty, I need to fellowship more, pray hard, serve Him, may His grace be upon me.
This is not a thought, it's a resolution....
As an Entreprenuer;
I think I should save more, invest, re-invest and make my own multi-million company, be a CEO of my own, work to those conferences and sign high end contracts with big wigs.
These are my thoughts...
As a Man;
I think I should be a MAN, man enough to face any challenge, get my own: property, wife, house, car, kids, life. I should be the real man the society wants from me. That man ladies die for, that guy institutions want to employ. I want to be a man.
These are my thoughts...
As Me;
I ought to be MYSELF, I think I should be the me my parents
brought me up to be. I should be: honest, faithful, kind, loving and be the real Me.
These are my thoughts...

I think I should stop thinking and implement my thoughts.
These are no-longer my thoughts, they are my resolutions. So help me God.

THERE IS A REASON!!!

"Am different, yes, am different"... Yesterday I was the happiest most jovial feeling rejuvenated.I spoke, thought and acted positive. As inspired and motivated as never before, there is a reason
Today; am moody, silent and dissatisfied. I speak nonsense and am  pessimistic,  I feel like going to F something, may be one or two and drink my head off, then take an object to my room and let it take charge of my filthy room. May be it the bet I lost or the crush who failed to pick my call. But; there is  a reason.
You look at me and smile, another one looks at me and spits, the one at the corner wishes to get a chance with me but then am not considering it. But then am in a world I am told is competitive, in different fields and you talk about competition?? Yes,    competition; There is a reason.
Just because I can't afford Robpol for lunch, I can't shop at reliance or board a matatu to town. I do Chelaas and Soweto, I go to town only when the semester ends. As if that is not enough you can't pick a call from my security phone (mulika mwizi). You assume me when we meet at the academic highway like am a stranger. Am hopeful, one day you will change, its inevitable anyway. All because; There is a reason
The cyber clock is ticking faster than I can type, what is in my pocket is not enough for another minute tell you the reason. I wish I could afford  a laptop and withstand the cold nights in order to access the free WiFi which the admin can't install in the hostel since; there is a reason.
I wish I was an object to get so I could look for a sponsor to subscribe for me unlimited internet on his 'smartphone'. But then am not! And for that there is also a reason.