THAT WAS TOO MUCH!!

Somethings put you off-guard, you feel like drinking a cold beer at the river banks admiring the smooth flow of water. How it navigates the bends and wonder when your life will flow smoothly like a drop of water in the river. This is what I feel when such happens, you lose 8/10 cows in your boma at ago. You are a farmer moreso a Kalenjin farmer.
You feel like the whole world is against you, it kills your confidence, freezes your bravity and nullifies your achievements. All of us will fail to understand how on earth someone walks into a shop, "nipee ile sumu ya nguvu kwa yote, yenye itaua ng'ombe 10/10 bila kubahatisha...." back in the mind he/she is picturing your boma. You go ahead and choose mashujaa day, on the night of mashujaa you execute your mission. You kill them, as innocent as they are, one after the other, you make sure they are not going to face the next day or the furthest they go is the next week. In your mind they carry the weight of 4000Ksh you were not paid as a fine because it is suspected they strained into you malnutritioned maite plants.
  Am not going to judge you, infact I dont even know you, God and yourself alone know who you are. The clock is still ticking and soon the truth will unveil, you will be brought to broad daylight by the actions you did in the dark, time will catch up with you. I wish you be forgiven but forever you will remain guilty and your actions will judge you.
I saw them die one by one like poisoned cockroaches. It was painful and you could see it by the nature of death; heavy breathing, bloody diarrhoea, coughing and finally puking as they gave up to their last breath. They did not kick it was useless, they had fought enough. If they could afford to say something at least they could have said their will, what to do with the orphaned calves and the person who killed them.
You will watch us suffer, start from scratch and build up again from the calves you spared, no, you forgot to poison. We shall be better than where we were before you did this. I hope you live long to see this happen but not to poison again, you can kill but please don't spare us the grieve, that is enough.
Acceptance is the first step towards healing, tumekubali. I know everybody has to spirit of vengeance, some let it die, some confess others revenge like you did. One could have been enough blow but that was too much for us to handle.